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It is torture to watch your eyes wander
The beauty they hold is much stronger
I am strong but weak when I feel less
I want to fix myself and not be a mess.

I never meant to get this way
My mind has been blank and I've been tired
I regret every day I am like this
I should remember this is how they are "wired"

Can't control what he feels for them
Young and pretty, full of energy.
But I am feeling broken, and unwanted.
I crave for compliments.

I do feel loved by him, and I feel his warmth
But I want the words he gives to them
The excitement that they bring
I want to bring to him again.

Is it that I have gotten old, and not a new look?
Do I need the makeup, the new clothes?
Work out more, be more, show more?
To get the compliments that he gives them?

Will being thinner, and wearing make up bring
The compliments that I have been waiting for?
Or would it be a waste of time
And he will just go back to his own thing?

I love him and never want to leave him,
I want him to be happy, even if he has to look,
stare, glance, be excited...
I just want the compliments that they receive.